Today is 24 June 2023, it is 9:00 am. I am sitting alone in my house. I have a house but I am not in the house. I don't even know where I am but I know that I am not at home. Some sound is coming from outside which reaches my ears and makes me feel that I am inside the house but my brain and my heartbeat tell me that I am outside the house. I am sitting in this confusion for a long time. It is about to be 1:00. I am hungry so I cut potatoes and made rice and started watching a Hollywood movie on my mobile phone and also ate food. After the movie was over, I slept. When I woke up at 4:00, I started seeing the same questions all around me. I sat down frustrated and disappointed. I have nothing with which I can express my time. What should I do? Where should I go? Whom should I ask about these questions which are making my life so difficult? My condition started getting worse than before. I was not able to understand what to do but one thing was clear that I am not going to do anything now which will harm me. I was afraid of death. I was now repenting a little for what I did last night. I thought that it is cowardice to ruin one's life in this way. If I have some questions, then there will definitely be an answer to them. I tried to adopt my positive behavior, but I am not ready to believe that I am still alive. I am thinking what happens after death. Does a person remain alive even after death? Another question got attached to me. Now I started explaining this. I used to ask questions to my mind and try to answer them from my mind. I was doing all this while sitting inside the room. If I did it while sitting outside, then people might think that I am crazy. One of the biggest questions that arose in my mind was whether there is a mind inside the body or not. So I searched on Google and found out in which part of the body is the mind. Google told me that there is no mind in any part of the body. So I became more restless. When there is no mind, then from where are the questions arising and why are these questions making me restless. When there is no mind, then there should be no questions. And if there are no questions, then I should not be restless. But it was not like that. These questions were coming in front of me and I felt that I could know the answers to these questions too. So I tried to stabilize myself and tried to meditate but I could not meditate. I was so lost in my confusion that now it was beyond my capacity to meditate. I just wanted answers to my questions. So I tried to understand the questions. The first question in front of me was that who am I and what am I? This seems to be a simple question that I am the child of my parents who are humans, so I am also a human being, but this is not the answer to that question. Then I answered myself that I am married and I have two children. So I am the husband of my wife, the father of my children, the child of my parents, the brother of my sisters and the relative of my relatives. There is no better answer than this, but this answer is just a formality, not reality. I wandered around and reached the same place from where I had started. Time kept passing. It was 10:00 at night. I got a video call from my wife. She asked me whether I had eaten food or not. I lied and said that I had eaten food and slept because I I am feeling sleepy due to the exhaustion of working all day, but the reality was that I had no work, I was unemployed because such questions can arise only in the mind of an unemployed person, only the one who has no work thinks about such questions, the one who has work, his mind is always busy, he cannot think about such questions, but with me it is a bit different, the more I want to keep myself busy, the more free I become. It was 10:30 in the night, I stopped thinking now and started watching a Hollywood movie on mobile phone, I watched the movie till 1:00 in the night and then I slept. I was still not able to sleep, but my eyes were paining due to watching the mobile phone, my eyes were tired but I was still not able to sleep, I started drowning in my depths again, I was thinking whether I would be able to answer my questions, whether I would ever be able to know what I am, who I am and why I am, in this dilemma I fell asleep.